This is what happens when i get bored..

xTess.x

We've got satelite tv. We've got like 20 porn chanels. I've got a 14 year old brother. Humm.. =S

x.Tess.x

a friend of mine sent me a picture of Oliver Sykes. one word : WOW!!

tomorrow i'm going to Annick's funeral..

monday Niels is going to Amsterdam, for 2 days. but i'm not gonna see him this weekend, so i'll have to miss him for 4 days. i know, that's not much, but i still hate it. and tuesday 's a special day.. 6 months together. and he 's in fucking amsterdam.. grrr..

i guess that's all.. and now i'm going to play basketball ^^

Tess.x

This tuesday i went for a walk. along with 4000 other people. for Annick. we went from the place where she was last seen alive, to the town center (4 kilometers further, i think). when we arrived at the town center, 6000 other people had joined us. yes, 10 000 men, women, children, teens,..

of course the press was there. and now i'm on the internet. (see picture - i'm the right one, for the ones who don't know yet)

a few moments later i started crying. i couldn't help thinking about what i would do if one of my friends would be dead, instead of Annick. don't get me wrong, i think it's horrible what happened, and i knew Annick too, but we weren't that close.. And the second i started to cry, something wonderfull happened; Niels held me in his arms like no one has ever held me before. and Nicky came to sit on the ground before me and he put his head on my knee.. we sat there like that for 20 minutes or so. and i realized that those 2 boys would do anything for me and that they love me. and i love them.

i've felt a lot of emotions, that tuesday evening.. damn =)

Tess.x

the police still doesn't have a clue who could me the murderer of the girl..

Annick, just know that we'll never forget you. you will always be in our hearts. you never deserved this..

i say it again : it's a fucking sick world..

Last friday a 19 year old girl dissapeared. there was a party, not far from Diest (where she lived, not even 500 meters from my house) and at 4 a.m. she went home by bike. at 5 she sent her boyfriend a message on his cell phone : "i'm not feeling too well. i've been vomiting and i've been crying. i'm going home now. i love you". she never got home.

during the whole week every one in Diest has been looking for this young girl. and yesterday they found her in a river : packed in plastic bags with rocks in them, tied with a rope.

the police announced that who ever killed her, smashed her head with something heavy. they're still investigating if this person (or these people) had raped her and if she was still alive when she was thrown in the water..

i knew who she was. the friendliest girl ever. very quiet, but very nice.

the world is a sick place.

My best friend in the whole world - Nicky - & I

(Ya, i'm in a "show my beloved ones -mood" ^^)

Omfg, i totally abandonned mindsay.. Shame on me!!

It's just that my life has been Chaos, lately. School 's killing me. So much work to do. Have to read 4 books in 4 different languages, have to write a paper of 35 pages about Albert Camus (look him up on google. don't feel like explaining who he was.), tests every day, .. + there's basketball & Niels <3.

speaking of Niels; i went to Groezrock this weekend, with him and Nicky, Rob, Laura, Tina, Charlotte and Annelies.  and it was GREAT!!

Groezrock is a festival, here in belgium. i went to see Enter Shikari, Senses Fail (!!!!!), Aiden (!!!!!), Jimmy Eat World, All American Rejects, New Found Glory,.. (you know what? look groezrock up on google too)

We stayed there in a tent.. Me and the 3 boys : Niels, Nicky and Rob. it's a pity that i couldn't be alone with Niels, but yeah..

Anyway : i had the time of my life!!

and now is time for food.

Adios, amigos!!

X3.

Tess.

Oh dear.. tomorrow i'm going to visit Niels' grandmother..His whole family is going to be there.. That's quite frightening ..

Tess.X

My grades (of which i'm very proud) :

geography : 51 %

german : 81.1 %

english : 80.1 %

art : 57.6 %

french : 79 %

history : 60.6 %

latin : 71.1 %

gym : 77 %

science : 79.6 %

dutch : 76.5 %

math : 62.5 %

Yeah, baby, yeah !!

So here are a few pictures from our Denmark trip last year..

I had the time of my life; i still miss it.. But :

WE'RE GOING BACK IN 6 DAYS!!

Unfortunately Sophie and Nina aren't going with us.. Sophie has to go skiing with her parents and poor Nina is in terrible pain. There's something wrong with the muscles that connect her chest to her shoulder, or someting like that.. She went to 3 doctors, and none of them can say what the problem is. I mean, they can say what the problem is : Nina is in pain, that's the problem; but they don't know why it hurts so much or what she can do about it.. Stupid muscles.. Muscles SUCK..

But this year Caro, Selina, Tatjana en Sara are coming along ^^

It won't be the same as last year, but it should be fun. At least i hope so..

Anyway, i'll post some pictures when we come back and of course i'll tell about everything that happened.

'cus believe me, a lot can happen in 5 days, har har ..

Damn, my lip is sore.. I went to Niels today.. That explains a lot, doesn't it?? =D

But it was really fun - again..

The only problem was that i had to go to his house by bike.. ahem .. Ya, my dad doesn't want him to come to our house, so that's the only option ^^ I don't mind going by bike, but it's soooooo fucking cold outside !!! I was freezing to death !!

Anyway; i arrived at his home and his (very friendly) dad opened the door for me. He smiled, said "Hello; it's cold outside, huh??". I said "Yeah, quite cold.. But i can handle it, sir ^^". Then he smiled a second time and told me Niels was upstairs in his room and that he knew i knew how to get there. (Yeah, of course i knew how to get there; last time i was at his house i spent 2 hours just laying in his bed.)

(Oh no, it was his brother's bed.. With Niels, of course, not with the brother!!)

So i went upstairs and Niels welcomed me ^^ I love it when he welcomes me..

After 15 minutes or so, we decided to watch "Monty Python ; the Holy Grail", 'cus i adore that movie and apperently Niels loves it too. We lit some candles, put 2 mattresses on the floor, took the pillows and blankets from his bed, layed down and started the movie.

We saw the first half of it.It was 14.23 h.

And the next thing i knew it was half past four !!

(Nope, we didn't see the other half of the movie.)

Since i had to be home at 5 o'clock, we decided to clean everything up and say goodbye..

Saying goodbye took us like 20 minutes, so i came home half an hour to late. I thought my father was going to kill me, but he just laughed at me =S I have the weirdest dad in the whole world.. But i'm not complaining !! I prefer this reaction!! Last time i came home 10 minutes to late he totally freaked out.. But well.. har har  ^^

Conclusion : today was fun.

And once again i'm listening to "Cellar doors, Donnie" by Mozart Season. I think i'm addicted to that song..

Bye bye.

X.Tess.X

Whoooaaaa, finally; i finished my last exam an hour ago ^^

FREEDOMMMMM!!!!

Tomorrow i can stay in bed as long as i want to, i can go/do where/what i want,.. heavenly!!

I'm supposed to pick up Niels from school at 12. The poor guy also has to be there tomorrow, while i'm still sleeping.. I should pitty him, but i really don't; i'm just happy that i can finally get some sleep. That's the problem with those exams : you study all day, you're tired as hell but you can't seem to fall asleep at night 'cuz you're nervous. I always panic at night..

However : i have to pick up Niels from school & then we're gonna have a drink with "the gang".

You can drink alcohol at the age of 16, here in Belgium !!

(there, i made some of you jalous.)

But the truth is that i don't care about alcohol, 'cus i don't drink it anymore. I stopped drinking it since july. I don't know why, i just didn't like it anymore.. and actually i'm always quite proud when i'm the only person still standing at the end of a party, har har .. you wouldn't believe how funny my friends can be when they're drunk!! And all i do is laugh at them and drink another ice tea. Omg, ice tea.. I would kill for ice tea !! But that doesn't really matter right now..

Oh, i hope Wim doesn't join us at the café.. It's not that i'm some kind of bitch who judges people only by the way they look, but this guy is just disgusting !!

First of all : his eyes.. There 's something terribly wrong with them. His left eye is always looking up and his right eye is always moving.. It's scary to see..

Second : his entire face is covered with big, yellow zits (yes, it's as repulsing as it sounds).

Third : when he's talking to you, you need a fucking umbrella !! And when he doesn't say anything, his saliva is just dripping from his mouth. (and yes, this is also as repulsing as it sounds)

Maybe people would like him if he was funny and/or at least a little bit interesting, but nope..

I think Wim is like God's way of making us clear that we should be happy with who we are and that it could have been much worse .. (Oh, that was rude..!!)

Oh well ..

I think i'm going to eat something before i go to Niels.. So :

Bye bye.

xxTessxx

Tomorrow last exam !!

German.

Yuck.

But i've got the whole afternoon to study, so it won't be a problem i think.

All my other exams went great. I feel so smart. I'm smart.

Nobody wants to accept it, but i am smart ^^.

(No, it's just that studying is easier when you're convinced that you're oh so intelligent. I'm saying these things because i want to feel smart.)

I'm cold. The belgian weather is terrible. I don't get it; 2 weeks ago it was like 20 degrees or something, & now.. it's freezing cold. So people : never come to belgium - you never know what kind of weather you're gonna get. (I think my toes are getting blue by now..)

Some information about me, today (some people actually like to know these things):

Wearing : Black pants, blue&red striped T-shirt, grey sweater.

Listening to : Cellar doors, donnie! - Mozart Season

Location : Kitchen

Oh, Mom's home ^^

Bye.X

Tess.

Omg, i had so much fun yesterday!!

OK, so we lost the basketball game (i don't give a fuck about that), but afterwards i went out with Wellens. I hadn't seen him for almost 2 years !!

He's still as funny as he used to be; we always have these absurd conversations like :

"I'm God."

"Oh, are you??"

"Yes. I will now cross that street with my eyes closed, and you will see : i won't get hit by a car, because i'm the Lord."

Fortunately he was to tired to stand up, so he didn't cross the street with his eyes closed.

I admit, it doesn't seem funny now, but yesterday, it was!!

In the mean time Niels & Nicky were in Antwerp, at a concert.. How i missed him.. even with my (very) funny company..

And i still mis him.. *sigh*

Yesterday :

Niels & i are together for 1 moth now. (Time flies)

We went to "the meadow" again, the place where Nicky introduced us to each other.

Nicky was supposed to come too, but he decided that he should leave us alone.

Of course he left us a small gift, har har.. (i'm telling what it was. forget it.) - he's like the best friend ever..

We just had sooooo much fun!! You can't imagine how funny candles can be!! =D

Then, we got hungry and went to the "Turkoase" (Where you can eat the best kebab in the whole fucking universe!!). That's where Niels discovered i LOVE garlic. Poor boy, har har har ^^

But like i said : time flies.. I had to go play basketball and Niels had to go home..

Today :

Niels & i are together for 1 month and 1 day now. (Time flies)

I've studied all day long for my English exam.. Why the fuck should i, an inhabitant of Belgium, care about the American and British education system?? it's confusing.. I always seem to forget what sophomores and freshmen are, and what GCSE's are.

In 2 hours i have to go play basketball again. I hope we win. I hope i play well. I'm so tired *sigh*.

Hmm..

Hungry.

x.Tess.x

It's been a while, but that's a good thing. My mother always says : "No news is good news".

So.. i'm fine ^^

i swear, if it wasn't for Niels ( <3 ) & Nicky, i wouldn't be here anymore..

Hmm..

x.Tess.x